About a month ago I wrote about my reflections on to what degree my thoughts were divided between the past, the present and the future, and how I had gained the insight that the key to happiness and peace for me in volatile periods with a high degree of uncertainty is to focus my thoughts as much as possible on the present. That is what I have continued to do and it has worked quite well. Over the course of the summer, I have become less anxious and more appreciative of the journey that I am on. I have intentionally steered my focus to what’s in front of me, which has been possible through surrounding myself with nature, family and close friends, driving my share of thoughts of the present up to a majority of all thoughts. I am not thinking much about the past anymore, but the remaining share of my thoughts are focused on the future, and right now mainly on my romantic relationship to see if we can make it work again. Strangely, a sort of trust or faith has been rooted in that I will find my way professionally. It is sort of like life itself, and to appreciate the days that constitute my life, has landed as more important than to figure out my future.
The last few weeks have been filled with travels, excursions, and events with loved ones which have helped me get into this mindset, enhanced by a recurring sense of awe for natural surroundings which put things into perspective. To live day by day and to appreciate the people, surroundings, and experiences that fill my days. It’s so easy to view life as a result or a goal we aim to achieve five or ten years from now and to put that goal as the centerpiece and most important part of our life, when life in reality is the minutes and hours of every day, how we live and more importantly how we view and perceive day by day over time is in the end what constitutes our life, not where we end up years from now.
So my current mindset is much defined by this insight, that enjoying my days and trusting my journey is most important, figuring out my future before it happens is secondary and frankly pointless. Regarding how to make progress professionally, I have landed in the guiding principle that I need to start thinking less and doing more, even when I am not sure if the doing is right for me, because thinking and reflecting can only get you so far.
All love and no fear,